September 30, 2011

The Negatives always seem to stand taller than the positives.

So this is my first post in over a month.  Things have been going quite well for me overall. I decided to write because I've been feeling like crap for 5 days now.  It's important to document the bad days so that others going through this aren't taken by surprise.  The Negatives always seem to stand taller than the positives, don't they?  Anyway, my body has been experiencing shooting nerve pain everywhere. This morning I awoke with an all too familiar feeling. My body hurt so bad that it even hurt to take a deep breath.  I have not felt that way in quite some time.  I am hoping that this is just a temporary setback and that it is simply a result of the crazy weather we have been having.  I have always been a barometer and I doubt that will ever change.  The other contributor might be that I have spent an enormous amount of time in my car.  I forgot to put my "Tush Cush" pillow on the seat and maybe the positioning threw me off.  I hate driving!  It causes me more pain than any other activity.  I do feel bad for my kids though, because they never really understood why I had to refuse them when it came to driving them here and there.  The weather is much dryer today so I am hopeful I will begin to feel better. I may never be completely healed and that is something I will just have to accept. I am just grateful for all the things I am able to do now that I have not been able to do in almost 20 years!